A Continuous Journey of Self-discovery
Today's a Good Day
Everyday's a good day. At least that's what I tell myself every morning. What about you? Do you wake up each day, ready to embrace it no matter what?
I’ve learned that we can take charge of our day and have a better than great day; or if we’re not careful we can allow for some idiot to make a great day bad. Or a stroke can rob you of a great day.
There are plenty of unhappy folks out there in this wonderful world of ours, do your part and be kind. Let me be the first to admit, “it’s not easy being nice all the time, especially after suffering a stroke”. Seriously, these mood swings!! Whew!!! Oh and let me not forget menopause. Should I write ✍️ an article on that too??? 🤔
I’m still learning how to manage my emotions after a year of suffering from a stroke. It’s a struggle Y'all, its a struggle. But, I do my best. So, let’s see, here goes. . .
What’s changed with me:
Short-tempered.
Lack of patience.
Easily angered.
Hate to be hot🔥 🥵.
Don't like too much stimulation of people, groups, or crowds.
OMG! Gossip!! Noooo!!
Folks who talk with high energy.
Energy draining folks. Used to tolerate ‘em.
Energy draining events and people are exhausting. Think of your most exhausting day. Now multiply that X20, 50!!! 🥵😳 It’s that bad. I’m improving, but heck, it takes time.
Telephone conversations: when I stop you mid sentence! Stop!! Please. I’m not being rude. I have to and I will protect myself. Some conversations are exhausting 😕 😔
I’m still Healing. I’m still healing. Everyday I awake to live another day. To paint another painting. To love. To have beautiful conversations. To open my eyes to know that I am here to see another day.
When will I be fully healed? 🤔 This is who I am folks. Hello my name is Michelle Joy Brown and I suffered a stroke. I'm okay.
I've embraced my life. Period.
There's more, but enough of that.
More on self-discovery
I’ve discontinued a lot of associations. People who called themselves my friends. They're better off without me in their lives and I'm certainly better off without those negative connections. I will no longer fake love or like! I’m taking care of me. I’m relearning how to be patient and even kind. 😌 I’m loving this opportunity and am so appreciative for my friends that are probably wondering if I’ve lost it at times 🤪😜😝 Maybe! But, I’m okay y’all. Please continue to be patient with me as I’m still under construction 🏗 🚧
[Side note: to those in a similar situation, you are not alone].
In the meantime, my time will be spent on my true family and friends and building relationships on the values that matter to me on a deeper level. More to come on that another day.
Art is my true love 🎨 So, I'll spend much of my creative time developing my skills as an artist. Everyday I'm in my temporary studio painting, and I’ll share lots of my creations this month.
Stay Tuned.
Lastly, I am forever grateful for my husband who is my ride or die!! My daughter and son, my parents, my sister CA and my two best friends. You guys were all here holding my hands, feeding my family, wiping my tears, making me laugh and hugging me and my family when we needed it. ❤️ I’m also thankful for all the rest.
Let’s make the end of this year the best of 2022.
If you've read this far you're a trooper: Thanks 😊
SEPTEMBER:
This month starting today, 9/1/22, I intend to post each day to encourage you, and inspire ✨️ you to bring out your own creativity. Life is too short to keep your brilliance in. Let it out. Share it with us - your world.
Go Create!
-Michelle
All art used in this newsletter is created by Michelle Joy Brown
I love your honesty my sweet friend!